I am a spread thin kinda mom. Do I still love Jesus?

First, let me say that if you clicked on this post because you are a spread thin kinda mom, allow yourself to take a deep breathe. Motherhood is amazing, demanding, miraculous, and tiresome all at the same time. I get it. I’ve been there. I am there-ALL the time.

You might be a mom, a wife, a professional, a taxi driver, a chef, a maid, and a personal therapist on a daily basis. You balance a lot. You are a rock star, but you are also a tired rock star without much breathe left to give at times. I get it.

This past weekend, I had the opportunity to sit in a room of about 3,000 women on fire for Jesus. It was awesome to see so many women worship and soak in the word of the Lord. It was life-giving to stop to take it all in. I sat in the back of the room on the floor and wept with Jesus. I worship. I prayed. I read the Bible. I locked arms with other women. I sat with Jesus and told Him that I still love Him.

In the midst of it all, the waves often overtake us and make us feel like we are drowning. The daily to-dos so often cause us to forget our first love-Jesus. Your time with Him may look very different than it did a year ago, 5 years ago, or 10 years ago. Seasons change. Nevertheless, find him. He is still there.

The mom without Jesus to lean on becomes empty quickly! I often wonder how anyone can make it through the day without Jesus. Without Him, I would fall flat on my face.

When I talk to and encourage other mothers, I so often hear them saying in between the lines, “I don’t know how to show Jesus that I love Him any more,” or “I don’t know if I am even showing Him that I love Him because I don’t pray enough or read the Bible enough.”

If you find yourself saying these thoughts in your mind, let me remind you what Jesus said once.‘‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these, you did for me” (Matthew 25:40). I truly believe as you wash the feet of your little one it is as if you are washing the feet of Jesus. As you pour yourself out for your family and those around you, you bring Him pleasure and delight.

We can take encouragement in this truth, yet He also offers rest for those who are weary and heavy-laden. His yoke is easy and light. So, why does motherhood feel so heavy at times?

We need Him.

If you have not sat with Jesus in a while and have not read the Word of God in a while, let me exhort you for a minute. I don’t condemn you. Although, I encourage you to ask the Holy Spirit for help. I often say out loud, “Holy Spirit, will you lead me to Jesus today? Help me find Him. Help me commune with Him.” He is always faithful to answer my prayers when I keep my eyes and ears open.

I find Him in the extra 10 minutes my kids sleep in the morning. I find Him in prayer with my child that is hurt or needs encouragement. I find Him when I am teaching my children and something profound and godly comes out of my mouth absent from my thoughts. I find Him when I choose to get up early or stay up late to read the Bible even though I am exhausted. He renews me.

I find Him most often when I am desperate, and I think I’ve lost Him.

I love Him, because He is who He says He is. Always. Period.

I love Him, because He does not point out the times I haven’t not pursued Him, I missed Him, or closed my ears to His correction. He does not hold a record of wrongs. Rather, He welcomes us with open arms EVERY TIME we seek Him, desire Him, and sit with Him.

If you are the spread-thin kinda mom who doesn’t know if you still really love Jesus the way you used to, I want to encourage you to pray a simple prayer:

“Holy Spirit, will you lead me to Jesus? Rekindle the flame and teach me how to seek you in this season.”

I promise He will be faithful to answer your prayer!

God is raising up a generation of women on fire for Jesus. He is raising up a army of women who are confident, equipped, and ready to spread the gospel. He is doing it. But, just reading that last sentence might have made you want to take a nap. If it did, it’s ok. But, this is why we must pray.

I don’t want you to miss out on what God has for you in the secret place. He may have great plans for you, but to be honest, He is not extremely concerned about what you can “do” for Him. Although it is fun to run with Him, He desires your heart. Everything else is the extra stuff.

Lastly, I have a few resources for you if you need some accountability and help finding Him again. Christine Caine’s devotional, Unshakeable: 365 Devotions for Finding Unwavering Strength in God’s Word, is awesome. One of my all time favorites (that I am currently reading now for about the 10th time) is Bridal Intercession by Gary Weins. (Its FREE on Kindle right now!). Lastly, if you are a homeschool mom, as many of my readers are, Teaching from Rest: A Homeschooler’s Guide to Unshakable Peace, is a must read.

Big hugs today,

Cathy

P.S. If this post is speaking your language, will you leave a comment or shoot me a message? I want to pray for you and stand with you.

 

 

2 COMMENTS

  1. Bethanie Mintz | 5th Oct 17

    Oh man Cathy!!! God’s perfect timing!! Im tired… beat!!! I’ve been short and not filled with grace towards my family and I know it’s because I need Jesus more… I needed your nudge to pursue it again with all I have… It’s the only thing worth having!! Thank you!!!

    • CathyHarris | 5th Oct 17

      I am so glad you stopped by. Grace, grace, grace to you my friend. You are right, we always need more of Him.

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